Secret Scene: Spencer
With Tribal Council looming, paranoia begins to set in for Spencer when he questions the loyalty of his closest ally, Sydney
Spencer (solo): When we came back from losing the immunity challenge, I was personally frustrated with my performance because I hate not only to lose, but to have an abysmal performance on my part. It was embarrassing and frustrating and it was just not a good day for me.
(Spencer asks Sydney to go get some water with him so he can find out what she's thinking)
Spencer: What do you think?
Sydney: It's hard, for sure.
Spencer: You seem a little...different.
Sydney: I seem different? It's just because someone has to go home. It sucks, and it's scary, cause it could be anyone.
Spencer (solo): Sydney talked about thinking she's vulnerable, but I think she was trying to deflect the attention away from the fact that I could be going home tonight.
Sydney: I don't know about you, but I automatically think about myself a little more.
Spencer: Think about it. The people I guarantee you JT will be thinking about are me and [nickname for Taj]. I guarantee you he's going to bring up my name today.
Sydney (solo): Spencer wanted to talk to me because I think he might have noticed how disappointed I was in his overall performance in the challenge. (Spencer says "the first five went short") I just wish Spencer might have at least tried to tackle Tyson or something.
Sydney: I know, it's hard not to think that...to blame...
Spencer: ...pissed off at me because he thinks I'm not trying. During the challenge he's like, "Come on!" What, do you think I'm not trying? Do you think I'm not busting my ass trying to figure out what the best way to get the balls is?
Sydney (solo): We shouldn't base our vote on one challenge, but I know JT was really pissed off about it, so he could be in trouble.
Tribal Council Voting
Watch as the Jalapao Tribe members cast their votes
Joe (Spencer): <says nothing>
Stephen (Spencer): (doing what seems to be a mafioso impression) Tonight, the Jalapao family settles all it's unfinished business.
Sydney (Spencer): You played a hell of a game, and I'm sorry it came down to this, but the majority rules.
Taj (Spencer): Your alliance told me to do it.
Spencer (Taj): I don't enjoy voting for you, but I'm pretty sure it's either me or you tonight. I have a sick feeling it might be me, but either way, I've had a great time hanging out with you.
JT (Spencer): Sorry, bud. Just couldn't trust you.
Spencer's Final Words
See Spencer's reaction after he was ousted by his tribe
"I just got voted out. Only lasted 15 days. Proud of lasting 15 days, but I definitely could have lasted a lot longer. I think the tribe felt like it'd be better to keep Taj over me for the next immunity challenge, and after the way I performed today, I can't really blame them. It was just a really bad challenge for me today and I feel like JT is one of those guys where if you get on his bad side you're not really getting off anytime soon. I think that altercation we had during the challenge today put him over the edge. I think he's probably the one who ended up calling the shots. But you know, you play the game, you get frustrated, you live and you learn. I learned a lot about myself throughout the 15 days I was out here. I know I get tense in challenges and things like that. It's upsetting I couldn't last longer but I'm OK with it."
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"I think my tribe overall probably won't skip a beat tomorrow morning. I think that we all get along pretty well. There's nothing special any of us brought to the group. I don't think they'll miss me in partciular. I made friends on that tribe, I hope they would miss having me around, but obviously they felt like I was most expendable of the group. I don't think they'll miss me too much tomorrow."
(cut)
"This game is not about friends but is about the trust you build with people and through that a lot of people become friends. If you rely on friends too much in this game it's probably gonna bite you in the butt eventually. I definitely made some friends when I was out there and I hope they feel the same way. It's just frustrating they feel either I wasn't useful enough in challenges or I wasn't trustworthy enough, but that's part of the game. You're not going to be trustworthy in a game. It was probably a smart move for them to get rid of me because I always knew in this game I was going to have to flip at any time. It's upsetting, still kind of shocked, even though I sort of expected it, but can't do anything about it."
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"I take away a lot of things from this experience, but mostly that I know where I need in life just to kind of work on. I know when I get in the moment a lot of times I'll get carried away, be a little too competitive, a little too intense for other people that it might come on too strong for people I'm trying to work with and might actually be detrimental to my team of whatever sort, whether it's work or school or whatever. I just feel like it's a really interesting experience coming out here and doing this for a couple of weeks. I know I could have lasted longer physically, so I wish I could have been able to test that, but it's still been quite a mental test, going day by day, hour by hour, trying to pass the time. I think I'm a better person coming out of it, but I know as far as my attitude in intense situations, I'll work on that."
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"I think overall, the tribe got to know the real me. A couple of things here and there you don't want to mention, just for gameplay purposes, but I think overall my tribe got to see who I really am. In challenges I'm intense, I'm sarcastic when I'm around everybody, I make jokes, I like to have fun, but I appreciate a hard work ethic, and I'm very competitive. I think overall my tribe did get to see the real me out there."
Spencer the Day After
Spencer reflects on his experiences in the game
"I definitely had a lot of game in me when I was voted out. I really didn't feel like much had really started. We voted out two members of the tribe pretty unainimously, and after that, we had still somewhat of a pecking order, or at least I thought. I felt pretty secure for a while, I didn't really feel like I needed to make that many moves yet. I didn't make that effort. That's what ended up killing me, I felt a little too secure with the people I had bonded with and made alliances with. I definitely had a lot more game in me, I was looking more long-term over the next 10, 15 days, as opposed to in the immediate, and that's probably what ended up doing me in. I felt the night I left, when we were leaving camp, I still felt like even though I was at risk, I still felt like I was coming back that night. When I left camp, if I knew I was going home, I definitely would have tried to make a few more moves right before I left. I felt a little too secure and that's what did me in."
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"I felt like mentally, I was able to overcome the hunger, and the dehydration, and the challenges and the heat and all that. That was just a mental game, mind over matter. I felt like the social game was what ended up getting me voted out. It wasn't because I was inept, but because I didn't make the best bonds with the right people. The people who had the power in the tribe, or the rest of the tribe allowed to have the power, didn't end up being particularly fond of me. That's what ended up getting me voted out. If I had been a strong friend of certain people in the tribe, like JT, I feel like I would still be in the game right now and I wouldn't have been voted out when I was. I feel like the reason I got voted out was a more personal reason because of anybody on the tribe, he and I were probably the least alike and had the least in common and there was some sort of invisible chasm between the two of us. I think that was the last straw in getting me voted out."
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"I feel very honored in being the youngest contestant ever on Survivor. Being 19 years old, the first ever teenager to play this game, as a fan of the game, it was very surreal to be given that honor. At some point somebody had to be chosen for it. The fact that I was the first one chosen for it was incredible. I do feel like I let down the young Survivor fans out there who would love to be a part of this game, because I got voted out fifth, but I think my age did have something to do with my game, I tended to trust more people than maybe the adults would have, my older tribemates would have done. There aren't many instances in life I've had to deal with so far where I've being lied to or I can tell, where the other person seems like they're telling me this to my face, but something fishy's going on. Coming into the game I wanted to be a better judge of that, but I feel like I definitely wasn't as good of a judge of honest and somebody being genuine as I had hoped. That may be with age, that may be something personal with me, I wanted to see the good in people. In a game like this, you have to check that at the door. That wasn't a focus of mine, as it should have been. Being 19, being out here, being the first teenager ever to play the game, is definitely an honor, and it's quite a thrill for me."
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"I definitely wish I would have been able to or would have felt like I was able to tell my tribe everything about me and my personal life. It's who I am. I want them to know me and know everything about me because they're people I have to live with and deal with and after the game is over they'll probably be my friends. Obviously I want to -- I don't like hiding things, I've been through that stage in my life. I feel like telling them I'm gay wasn't the best idea at the time. I definitely think going back and doing it again I would have done the same thing. But obviously I want them to know, I don't want to have to hide things. That's not fun, and maybe it makes them feel like they're missing something and not wanting to trust me then if they think I'm hiding things from them, if that's me being dishonest, or there's something fishy, that's going to say, 'Hey' and raise a red flag and might make them quesiton my trust enough to vote me out."
A Worthy Opponent
Coach shares his thoughts on his tribemate, Brendan.
"What I did yesterday, I sat there and replayed my mind every challenge we had participated in, and I visualized Brendan's effort in all those challenges. I saw him sitting up there with the bag of sand, almost breaking, he was struggling and straining. I just look back on all his noble efforts, pulling that spinning top. I was reflecting, I did it last night too, kind of seeing every challenge and what he's brought to the game and what a travesty it would be to lose such a worthy opponent, or worthy teammate. I thought about being true to my word in how I want to play this game. I really thought about it. I woke up this morning and I thought, Tyson, this doesn't sit well with me with Brendan. He said, 'Well, it's what we gotta do', but I'm not so sure. I think depending on what happens after this, I'm gonna take a long walk with Tyson. It's just the nobility of it, it kind of gets me a little bit emotional. (picking his teeth) Sorry. It actually gets me a little bit emotional thinking about it, just because of the efforts he's put in in every event. Have I ever seen him slacking, have I ever seen him shirking around camp, have I ever seen him compete less than his best? No."
Coach's Lung Ailment
Coach suffers from shortness of breath while at camp, and shares how this will affect his game
"My lungs just keep playing up. I'm in a continuous fight out here with something in the air, or maybe the palm fronds. It's killing me. I can't take a deep breath. I haven't been able to take a deep breath in 10 days. I try to hide it as much as I can. I keep thinking when we go to the challenges that's all that matters, just save everything until then, but in the morning, when i wake up, I probably have about a fourth of my lung capacity. In the middle of the day I have half. When I bend over like this, my lungs are flat, so I don't have to work as hard to get a breath, but I'm struggling. Nothing's gonna take me out of this game, but it's just that I have to suffer more than anyone else because I feel like I'm slowly suffocating. Every day, I don't get a break from it, it's here with me every day. Morning, noon, and night. It's my Kryptonite. Everything else works good. Lungs. Well, that's not true. Back. Might be another Kryptone. I'm not gonna let my body fall apart out here. I'll suffocate before I would quit. I'm not quitting for anything."
Erinn Falls in the Water
Too much heat, lack of food, or just plain clumsy? Watch as Erinn takes an unexpected dip in the river.
(Erinn says something I don't understand, then slowly walks backwards into the water before falling)
Erinn: Just falling down, for no reason. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. Dammit. (laughing)
Debra: First thing in the morning. It'll dry back out. (her clothes)
Erinn: I just lost my footing and fell down.
Debra: It'll dry fast. Get those clothes off. Do you have a bathing suit on right now? (Erinn says yes) Why don't you get 'em off and hang them on these trees right now? Let's just wring them both ways.
Sierra: I was like, "What's going on here?"
Debra: I thought she was just wading in fully clothed.
Erinn: All the sand underneath me kind of sunk, and I lost my footing completely.
Creepy Coach
Sierra shares a disturbing statement made by Coach
"Coach will say things like, 'Hey Debbie, it's really cold right now. Why don't we take off our shirts, put our chests together. That's what they taught me in some whatever, Last of the Mohicans book. That'll keep us warm at night.' I'm sitting her thinking to myself, 'Geez, I wouldn't give you a toe, man.' (laughs) I don't think so. Yeah...that's kind of creepy. It is. You'll never hear Tyson say something like that. You'll never hear Brendan say something like that. It comes off creepier from Coach because there's a part of him that means keep warm, there's a part of him that means to get some other kind of satisfaction out of it. (laughs) Either way, I'm not going to be a part of it. I'll stick with Jerry's old shirt."
Erinn's Worst Night
Erinn describes a night of torment where had to endure the stormy weather...and Coach
"Last night was awful. It was maybe one of my worst nights ever out here, in real life, or otherwise. It rained all afternoon. We sat huddled together as close as we could get. It never stopped. Finally, late last night, when we were all ready to give up and lay down and go to sleep in the rain, it finally let up, but we were all so wet already, and our shelter was wet, and it was dripping. It was terrible. We maybe got 20 minutes of sleep apiece. It was awful."
(cut)
"I think we all fared pretty well together in such a crappy situation. Coach got a little ornery, but that's to be expected, that's usual at night. Maybe a little bit more than usual, but at this point he's so ridiculous I just laugh it off anyway. But I think he and Sierra were kind of going at it a little bit."
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"She would move, and she'd be cold, and he wouldn't be close enough, and she'd say, 'Now I'm freezing,' and he'd say, 'No, you're close to me.' It was awful. It was like back and forth for an hour while I was trying to sleep. It was annoying."
Debbie and Sierra Bond
Sierra shares a secret crush with Debbie as the two discuss the game
Debbie: You and Brendan look like you're pretty tight now too.
Sierra: I think it's more of a crush.
Debbie: You do? (Sierra laughs) Do you think he has a crush on you, or vice-versa, or both?
Sierra: Eh, maybe a little bit of both. But I don't ever talk to him about...we didn't have time.
Debbie: No one does. The good thing is we don't have an immunity thing for a while. I just want us all to get to the merge is what I want. Then see what happens from there. I don't know. This game gets crazy. Every day it's a different turn, a different thing.
Sierra: Like I said before, I would never throw you under the bus.
Debbie: I'm not gonna throw you under the bus either.
Sierra: You're one of the only people I trust, actually.
Debbie: All the sudden...I guess that's what bothers me, it's like, my world starts getting rocked. You start second-guessing everything, and is what people told you true. That's not the way, ew, that's not the way I like to live my life.
Sierra: I do mean it though.
Debbie: I do too. I do too. And if something ever changes or whatever I'm gonna tell you. I'll be very honest with you. But no, I'm the same.
Rationing the Beans
Coach delegates a bean-rationing plan to Brendan after discovering that their supply has dwindled
Coach: I know we talked about it last night. We keep on talking about these beans, and we want to make it to the merge.
Brendan: What's gonna happen to all that stuff over there?
Coach: What if they don't bring it over here?
Brendan: We're gonna get it.
Coach: Dude, you can't assume that we're gonna have everything. And what if they're going crazy on it?
Brendan: They're not. Even if they did go crazy, you can't...
Coach: What if it got ruined in the rain? You never know.
Brendan: Yeah.
Coach: I want you to eat today, because we're hungry, but we talked about it last night. We're trying to get to the merge with the food we have. We've got to be a little more careful of it. I want you to eat as much as you want, stuff your face today, I know you're coming back from hell. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying we need to be a little bit more careful on going too crazy on it. Just thinking about the merge and the end game. You never know what they're doing there.
Brendan: I promise you they're not ruining the beans, they're not overeating. Even if they did overeat for five days, there'd still be plenty left.
Coach: Plenty left for the whole time we're out here?
Brendan: Yes. Zero doubt. If we run out I'll stop eating.
Coach: Yeah, but if we run out, that's gonna be a little bit too late.
Tyson: (sarcastically) Yeah, if we run out, I'll stop eating too.
Coach: Thanks guys, that's awesome!
JT's Broken Tooth
JT describes the moment he lost half of his tooth during the immunity challenge
"I scored a point, I dove, and I think it was a ball or an elbow. I'm not sure which one. I think I may have closed my eyes. Something hit me in the mouth. May have been the ball or the racket. It just broke the back half of my front tooth off. Fortunately it's not the front, so you can't really see it, but I could really feel the big half a tooth with my tongue. I just spit it out. I was ready to go. It didn't really hurt."
(cut)
"I scored. I didn't care about my tooth. When I stood up, I was like (looks down to his hand), 'Damn, my tooth.' I just threw it down, I was ready to go again. I knew we had a shot if we could keep score. That's all I could think about."
(cut)
"I would much rather Jeff have handed me the immunity idol and not my tooth, but he handed me my tooth back."
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"No, I don't believe it will affect my game, unlike Spencer's huge thumb slicing, where it may cause him to die or something. My tooth's not gonna bother me. I can swallow rice whole if I need to."
Improving Timbira's Roof
The morning after the storm, Debbie outlines Timbira's plan to remodel their meager roof
"Today, we collected more palm fronds, and we're working on the roof of our shelter, because yesterday, we probably had 16 hours of downpour rain, we were absolutely soaked and freezing. We decided today that was a priority around this camp, to get more foilage in our shelter and hopefully avoid being soaked in a freezing cold night. None of us slept at all last night."
(cut)
"Honestly, I don't know if it's gonna work, but we keep thinking more is better. What we had before did not work. It was like raining inside. None of us had a piece of dry clothing. Socks, shoes, anything. Now today it's burning up. Probably 125 degrees. Clouds are building a little bit but it doesn't feel like rain like it did yesterday. We may luck out tonight. We have to be prepared. We had to do something more than at least what we had as a shelter for rain. We lost the challenge where we would have had a tarp, so we're making do with the environment."
Letters from Home
Sydney describes how it felt to receive letters from her loved ones
"I had five letters from our friends and family, which was so unexpected at that moment. The food was unexpected for me, the amount of food and the amount of drink that the Charmin Cafe offered, and then something of more comfort from our friends and family, who we've been only able to send prayers and thoughts out, then to get something from them was just incredible. For them to kind of be able to reciprocate their thoughts and what they're thinking about us was amazing."
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"The letter from my boyfriend was hardest for me, because he's back at home thinking about me. I'm thinking about him every day and trying to remember his face. Him describing how he's taking care of our dog and watching our dog grow up, because he's so young. It was really emotional to know life still goes on without you there. All they want is for you to be by their side. It was amazing to have read that but also made me even more excited to be here, because I know how proud he would be of as far as I've made it so far."
Spencer on the Charmin Reward
Spencer describes the joy he felt when he was able to enjoy a little taste of civilization at the Charmin Cafe
"I definitely knew I would miss some cleaning supplies, but I didn't think I would miss toilet paper as much as I do, or soap, just to get the grime and dirt under my fingernails. Fingernail clippers are a huge thing. They're really disgusting and long. Shampoo I didn't think I'd miss. I knew my hair would get greasy but I thought maybe rinsing it out every day or so would keep it alright, but it's been pretty disgusting. I'm somewhat surprised at how much I miss all those things, because you don't live without them. You think OK, I've gone a couple days without soap. At home, you don't really go ever without washing or anything like that. You don't realize what it's like to be disgusting for two days. I'm appreciative we got the opportunity to clean up a little bit."
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"There's a huge difference between a leaf and a ply of Charmin toilet paper, for sure. (looks embarrassed) Leaves are very tricky, they're very brittle, they break. They don't do the job as well as you would like. Charmin you pretty much trust that they got the job done. There's a huge difference between wiping certain areas with a Charmin toilet paper roll and with random leaves up in the bush."
Spilling the Beans
As an unrelenting storm hits, Coach and Sierra butt heads in the shelter
Tyson (solo): This is definitely the worst storm we've had since we've been here. The worst part about it is it doesn't look to be stopping. It's dark everywhere. There's thunder, probably lightning. We're trying to stay warm in our shelter but it's leaking. Now i'm out here getting completely drenched. My nipples are hard. It's awesome.
(Debra goes outside the shelter to get beans)
Coach: Hate to tell you this, but it doesn't look like it's letting up.
Debra: It's going to be so wet in here to sleep tonight.
Coach: Please don't spill any, I'm begging you guys.
Sierra: We're not in the best circumstances right now. You just need to calm down, please.
Coach: Sierra...
Sierra: I think you're just being super-picky. We're trying. My arm doesn't extend all the way over there. We're stressed out too.
Coach: I'm not stressed out, I'm just saying I don't want to have beans in the bed.
Sierra: I'll clean the floor off.
Sierra (solo): The rain makes you want to give up. Rain will take any small little teeny thing you're holding inside against one of your tribe members and it will push it right out of you.
Coach: I haven't spilled one bean yet.
Sierra (solo): Coach had to behave the way that he did. I'm like, alright Coach, we already found the idol, I'll round everyone up and I'll vote you out. Just keep pushing my buttons. I dare ya! (laughs) I dare ya!
With Tribal Council looming, paranoia begins to set in for Spencer when he questions the loyalty of his closest ally, Sydney
Spencer (solo): When we came back from losing the immunity challenge, I was personally frustrated with my performance because I hate not only to lose, but to have an abysmal performance on my part. It was embarrassing and frustrating and it was just not a good day for me.
(Spencer asks Sydney to go get some water with him so he can find out what she's thinking)
Spencer: What do you think?
Sydney: It's hard, for sure.
Spencer: You seem a little...different.
Sydney: I seem different? It's just because someone has to go home. It sucks, and it's scary, cause it could be anyone.
Spencer (solo): Sydney talked about thinking she's vulnerable, but I think she was trying to deflect the attention away from the fact that I could be going home tonight.
Sydney: I don't know about you, but I automatically think about myself a little more.
Spencer: Think about it. The people I guarantee you JT will be thinking about are me and [nickname for Taj]. I guarantee you he's going to bring up my name today.
Sydney (solo): Spencer wanted to talk to me because I think he might have noticed how disappointed I was in his overall performance in the challenge. (Spencer says "the first five went short") I just wish Spencer might have at least tried to tackle Tyson or something.
Sydney: I know, it's hard not to think that...to blame...
Spencer: ...pissed off at me because he thinks I'm not trying. During the challenge he's like, "Come on!" What, do you think I'm not trying? Do you think I'm not busting my ass trying to figure out what the best way to get the balls is?
Sydney (solo): We shouldn't base our vote on one challenge, but I know JT was really pissed off about it, so he could be in trouble.
Tribal Council Voting
Watch as the Jalapao Tribe members cast their votes
Joe (Spencer): <says nothing>
Stephen (Spencer): (doing what seems to be a mafioso impression) Tonight, the Jalapao family settles all it's unfinished business.
Sydney (Spencer): You played a hell of a game, and I'm sorry it came down to this, but the majority rules.
Taj (Spencer): Your alliance told me to do it.
Spencer (Taj): I don't enjoy voting for you, but I'm pretty sure it's either me or you tonight. I have a sick feeling it might be me, but either way, I've had a great time hanging out with you.
JT (Spencer): Sorry, bud. Just couldn't trust you.
Spencer's Final Words
See Spencer's reaction after he was ousted by his tribe
"I just got voted out. Only lasted 15 days. Proud of lasting 15 days, but I definitely could have lasted a lot longer. I think the tribe felt like it'd be better to keep Taj over me for the next immunity challenge, and after the way I performed today, I can't really blame them. It was just a really bad challenge for me today and I feel like JT is one of those guys where if you get on his bad side you're not really getting off anytime soon. I think that altercation we had during the challenge today put him over the edge. I think he's probably the one who ended up calling the shots. But you know, you play the game, you get frustrated, you live and you learn. I learned a lot about myself throughout the 15 days I was out here. I know I get tense in challenges and things like that. It's upsetting I couldn't last longer but I'm OK with it."
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"I think my tribe overall probably won't skip a beat tomorrow morning. I think that we all get along pretty well. There's nothing special any of us brought to the group. I don't think they'll miss me in partciular. I made friends on that tribe, I hope they would miss having me around, but obviously they felt like I was most expendable of the group. I don't think they'll miss me too much tomorrow."
(cut)
"This game is not about friends but is about the trust you build with people and through that a lot of people become friends. If you rely on friends too much in this game it's probably gonna bite you in the butt eventually. I definitely made some friends when I was out there and I hope they feel the same way. It's just frustrating they feel either I wasn't useful enough in challenges or I wasn't trustworthy enough, but that's part of the game. You're not going to be trustworthy in a game. It was probably a smart move for them to get rid of me because I always knew in this game I was going to have to flip at any time. It's upsetting, still kind of shocked, even though I sort of expected it, but can't do anything about it."
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"I take away a lot of things from this experience, but mostly that I know where I need in life just to kind of work on. I know when I get in the moment a lot of times I'll get carried away, be a little too competitive, a little too intense for other people that it might come on too strong for people I'm trying to work with and might actually be detrimental to my team of whatever sort, whether it's work or school or whatever. I just feel like it's a really interesting experience coming out here and doing this for a couple of weeks. I know I could have lasted longer physically, so I wish I could have been able to test that, but it's still been quite a mental test, going day by day, hour by hour, trying to pass the time. I think I'm a better person coming out of it, but I know as far as my attitude in intense situations, I'll work on that."
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"I think overall, the tribe got to know the real me. A couple of things here and there you don't want to mention, just for gameplay purposes, but I think overall my tribe got to see who I really am. In challenges I'm intense, I'm sarcastic when I'm around everybody, I make jokes, I like to have fun, but I appreciate a hard work ethic, and I'm very competitive. I think overall my tribe did get to see the real me out there."
Spencer the Day After
Spencer reflects on his experiences in the game
"I definitely had a lot of game in me when I was voted out. I really didn't feel like much had really started. We voted out two members of the tribe pretty unainimously, and after that, we had still somewhat of a pecking order, or at least I thought. I felt pretty secure for a while, I didn't really feel like I needed to make that many moves yet. I didn't make that effort. That's what ended up killing me, I felt a little too secure with the people I had bonded with and made alliances with. I definitely had a lot more game in me, I was looking more long-term over the next 10, 15 days, as opposed to in the immediate, and that's probably what ended up doing me in. I felt the night I left, when we were leaving camp, I still felt like even though I was at risk, I still felt like I was coming back that night. When I left camp, if I knew I was going home, I definitely would have tried to make a few more moves right before I left. I felt a little too secure and that's what did me in."
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"I felt like mentally, I was able to overcome the hunger, and the dehydration, and the challenges and the heat and all that. That was just a mental game, mind over matter. I felt like the social game was what ended up getting me voted out. It wasn't because I was inept, but because I didn't make the best bonds with the right people. The people who had the power in the tribe, or the rest of the tribe allowed to have the power, didn't end up being particularly fond of me. That's what ended up getting me voted out. If I had been a strong friend of certain people in the tribe, like JT, I feel like I would still be in the game right now and I wouldn't have been voted out when I was. I feel like the reason I got voted out was a more personal reason because of anybody on the tribe, he and I were probably the least alike and had the least in common and there was some sort of invisible chasm between the two of us. I think that was the last straw in getting me voted out."
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"I feel very honored in being the youngest contestant ever on Survivor. Being 19 years old, the first ever teenager to play this game, as a fan of the game, it was very surreal to be given that honor. At some point somebody had to be chosen for it. The fact that I was the first one chosen for it was incredible. I do feel like I let down the young Survivor fans out there who would love to be a part of this game, because I got voted out fifth, but I think my age did have something to do with my game, I tended to trust more people than maybe the adults would have, my older tribemates would have done. There aren't many instances in life I've had to deal with so far where I've being lied to or I can tell, where the other person seems like they're telling me this to my face, but something fishy's going on. Coming into the game I wanted to be a better judge of that, but I feel like I definitely wasn't as good of a judge of honest and somebody being genuine as I had hoped. That may be with age, that may be something personal with me, I wanted to see the good in people. In a game like this, you have to check that at the door. That wasn't a focus of mine, as it should have been. Being 19, being out here, being the first teenager ever to play the game, is definitely an honor, and it's quite a thrill for me."
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"I definitely wish I would have been able to or would have felt like I was able to tell my tribe everything about me and my personal life. It's who I am. I want them to know me and know everything about me because they're people I have to live with and deal with and after the game is over they'll probably be my friends. Obviously I want to -- I don't like hiding things, I've been through that stage in my life. I feel like telling them I'm gay wasn't the best idea at the time. I definitely think going back and doing it again I would have done the same thing. But obviously I want them to know, I don't want to have to hide things. That's not fun, and maybe it makes them feel like they're missing something and not wanting to trust me then if they think I'm hiding things from them, if that's me being dishonest, or there's something fishy, that's going to say, 'Hey' and raise a red flag and might make them quesiton my trust enough to vote me out."
A Worthy Opponent
Coach shares his thoughts on his tribemate, Brendan.
"What I did yesterday, I sat there and replayed my mind every challenge we had participated in, and I visualized Brendan's effort in all those challenges. I saw him sitting up there with the bag of sand, almost breaking, he was struggling and straining. I just look back on all his noble efforts, pulling that spinning top. I was reflecting, I did it last night too, kind of seeing every challenge and what he's brought to the game and what a travesty it would be to lose such a worthy opponent, or worthy teammate. I thought about being true to my word in how I want to play this game. I really thought about it. I woke up this morning and I thought, Tyson, this doesn't sit well with me with Brendan. He said, 'Well, it's what we gotta do', but I'm not so sure. I think depending on what happens after this, I'm gonna take a long walk with Tyson. It's just the nobility of it, it kind of gets me a little bit emotional. (picking his teeth) Sorry. It actually gets me a little bit emotional thinking about it, just because of the efforts he's put in in every event. Have I ever seen him slacking, have I ever seen him shirking around camp, have I ever seen him compete less than his best? No."
Coach's Lung Ailment
Coach suffers from shortness of breath while at camp, and shares how this will affect his game
"My lungs just keep playing up. I'm in a continuous fight out here with something in the air, or maybe the palm fronds. It's killing me. I can't take a deep breath. I haven't been able to take a deep breath in 10 days. I try to hide it as much as I can. I keep thinking when we go to the challenges that's all that matters, just save everything until then, but in the morning, when i wake up, I probably have about a fourth of my lung capacity. In the middle of the day I have half. When I bend over like this, my lungs are flat, so I don't have to work as hard to get a breath, but I'm struggling. Nothing's gonna take me out of this game, but it's just that I have to suffer more than anyone else because I feel like I'm slowly suffocating. Every day, I don't get a break from it, it's here with me every day. Morning, noon, and night. It's my Kryptonite. Everything else works good. Lungs. Well, that's not true. Back. Might be another Kryptone. I'm not gonna let my body fall apart out here. I'll suffocate before I would quit. I'm not quitting for anything."
Erinn Falls in the Water
Too much heat, lack of food, or just plain clumsy? Watch as Erinn takes an unexpected dip in the river.
(Erinn says something I don't understand, then slowly walks backwards into the water before falling)
Erinn: Just falling down, for no reason. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. Dammit. (laughing)
Debra: First thing in the morning. It'll dry back out. (her clothes)
Erinn: I just lost my footing and fell down.
Debra: It'll dry fast. Get those clothes off. Do you have a bathing suit on right now? (Erinn says yes) Why don't you get 'em off and hang them on these trees right now? Let's just wring them both ways.
Sierra: I was like, "What's going on here?"
Debra: I thought she was just wading in fully clothed.
Erinn: All the sand underneath me kind of sunk, and I lost my footing completely.
Creepy Coach
Sierra shares a disturbing statement made by Coach
"Coach will say things like, 'Hey Debbie, it's really cold right now. Why don't we take off our shirts, put our chests together. That's what they taught me in some whatever, Last of the Mohicans book. That'll keep us warm at night.' I'm sitting her thinking to myself, 'Geez, I wouldn't give you a toe, man.' (laughs) I don't think so. Yeah...that's kind of creepy. It is. You'll never hear Tyson say something like that. You'll never hear Brendan say something like that. It comes off creepier from Coach because there's a part of him that means keep warm, there's a part of him that means to get some other kind of satisfaction out of it. (laughs) Either way, I'm not going to be a part of it. I'll stick with Jerry's old shirt."
Erinn's Worst Night
Erinn describes a night of torment where had to endure the stormy weather...and Coach
"Last night was awful. It was maybe one of my worst nights ever out here, in real life, or otherwise. It rained all afternoon. We sat huddled together as close as we could get. It never stopped. Finally, late last night, when we were all ready to give up and lay down and go to sleep in the rain, it finally let up, but we were all so wet already, and our shelter was wet, and it was dripping. It was terrible. We maybe got 20 minutes of sleep apiece. It was awful."
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"I think we all fared pretty well together in such a crappy situation. Coach got a little ornery, but that's to be expected, that's usual at night. Maybe a little bit more than usual, but at this point he's so ridiculous I just laugh it off anyway. But I think he and Sierra were kind of going at it a little bit."
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"She would move, and she'd be cold, and he wouldn't be close enough, and she'd say, 'Now I'm freezing,' and he'd say, 'No, you're close to me.' It was awful. It was like back and forth for an hour while I was trying to sleep. It was annoying."
Debbie and Sierra Bond
Sierra shares a secret crush with Debbie as the two discuss the game
Debbie: You and Brendan look like you're pretty tight now too.
Sierra: I think it's more of a crush.
Debbie: You do? (Sierra laughs) Do you think he has a crush on you, or vice-versa, or both?
Sierra: Eh, maybe a little bit of both. But I don't ever talk to him about...we didn't have time.
Debbie: No one does. The good thing is we don't have an immunity thing for a while. I just want us all to get to the merge is what I want. Then see what happens from there. I don't know. This game gets crazy. Every day it's a different turn, a different thing.
Sierra: Like I said before, I would never throw you under the bus.
Debbie: I'm not gonna throw you under the bus either.
Sierra: You're one of the only people I trust, actually.
Debbie: All the sudden...I guess that's what bothers me, it's like, my world starts getting rocked. You start second-guessing everything, and is what people told you true. That's not the way, ew, that's not the way I like to live my life.
Sierra: I do mean it though.
Debbie: I do too. I do too. And if something ever changes or whatever I'm gonna tell you. I'll be very honest with you. But no, I'm the same.
Rationing the Beans
Coach delegates a bean-rationing plan to Brendan after discovering that their supply has dwindled
Coach: I know we talked about it last night. We keep on talking about these beans, and we want to make it to the merge.
Brendan: What's gonna happen to all that stuff over there?
Coach: What if they don't bring it over here?
Brendan: We're gonna get it.
Coach: Dude, you can't assume that we're gonna have everything. And what if they're going crazy on it?
Brendan: They're not. Even if they did go crazy, you can't...
Coach: What if it got ruined in the rain? You never know.
Brendan: Yeah.
Coach: I want you to eat today, because we're hungry, but we talked about it last night. We're trying to get to the merge with the food we have. We've got to be a little more careful of it. I want you to eat as much as you want, stuff your face today, I know you're coming back from hell. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying we need to be a little bit more careful on going too crazy on it. Just thinking about the merge and the end game. You never know what they're doing there.
Brendan: I promise you they're not ruining the beans, they're not overeating. Even if they did overeat for five days, there'd still be plenty left.
Coach: Plenty left for the whole time we're out here?
Brendan: Yes. Zero doubt. If we run out I'll stop eating.
Coach: Yeah, but if we run out, that's gonna be a little bit too late.
Tyson: (sarcastically) Yeah, if we run out, I'll stop eating too.
Coach: Thanks guys, that's awesome!
JT's Broken Tooth
JT describes the moment he lost half of his tooth during the immunity challenge
"I scored a point, I dove, and I think it was a ball or an elbow. I'm not sure which one. I think I may have closed my eyes. Something hit me in the mouth. May have been the ball or the racket. It just broke the back half of my front tooth off. Fortunately it's not the front, so you can't really see it, but I could really feel the big half a tooth with my tongue. I just spit it out. I was ready to go. It didn't really hurt."
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"I scored. I didn't care about my tooth. When I stood up, I was like (looks down to his hand), 'Damn, my tooth.' I just threw it down, I was ready to go again. I knew we had a shot if we could keep score. That's all I could think about."
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"I would much rather Jeff have handed me the immunity idol and not my tooth, but he handed me my tooth back."
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"No, I don't believe it will affect my game, unlike Spencer's huge thumb slicing, where it may cause him to die or something. My tooth's not gonna bother me. I can swallow rice whole if I need to."
Improving Timbira's Roof
The morning after the storm, Debbie outlines Timbira's plan to remodel their meager roof
"Today, we collected more palm fronds, and we're working on the roof of our shelter, because yesterday, we probably had 16 hours of downpour rain, we were absolutely soaked and freezing. We decided today that was a priority around this camp, to get more foilage in our shelter and hopefully avoid being soaked in a freezing cold night. None of us slept at all last night."
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"Honestly, I don't know if it's gonna work, but we keep thinking more is better. What we had before did not work. It was like raining inside. None of us had a piece of dry clothing. Socks, shoes, anything. Now today it's burning up. Probably 125 degrees. Clouds are building a little bit but it doesn't feel like rain like it did yesterday. We may luck out tonight. We have to be prepared. We had to do something more than at least what we had as a shelter for rain. We lost the challenge where we would have had a tarp, so we're making do with the environment."
Letters from Home
Sydney describes how it felt to receive letters from her loved ones
"I had five letters from our friends and family, which was so unexpected at that moment. The food was unexpected for me, the amount of food and the amount of drink that the Charmin Cafe offered, and then something of more comfort from our friends and family, who we've been only able to send prayers and thoughts out, then to get something from them was just incredible. For them to kind of be able to reciprocate their thoughts and what they're thinking about us was amazing."
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"The letter from my boyfriend was hardest for me, because he's back at home thinking about me. I'm thinking about him every day and trying to remember his face. Him describing how he's taking care of our dog and watching our dog grow up, because he's so young. It was really emotional to know life still goes on without you there. All they want is for you to be by their side. It was amazing to have read that but also made me even more excited to be here, because I know how proud he would be of as far as I've made it so far."
Spencer on the Charmin Reward
Spencer describes the joy he felt when he was able to enjoy a little taste of civilization at the Charmin Cafe
"I definitely knew I would miss some cleaning supplies, but I didn't think I would miss toilet paper as much as I do, or soap, just to get the grime and dirt under my fingernails. Fingernail clippers are a huge thing. They're really disgusting and long. Shampoo I didn't think I'd miss. I knew my hair would get greasy but I thought maybe rinsing it out every day or so would keep it alright, but it's been pretty disgusting. I'm somewhat surprised at how much I miss all those things, because you don't live without them. You think OK, I've gone a couple days without soap. At home, you don't really go ever without washing or anything like that. You don't realize what it's like to be disgusting for two days. I'm appreciative we got the opportunity to clean up a little bit."
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"There's a huge difference between a leaf and a ply of Charmin toilet paper, for sure. (looks embarrassed) Leaves are very tricky, they're very brittle, they break. They don't do the job as well as you would like. Charmin you pretty much trust that they got the job done. There's a huge difference between wiping certain areas with a Charmin toilet paper roll and with random leaves up in the bush."
Spilling the Beans
As an unrelenting storm hits, Coach and Sierra butt heads in the shelter
Tyson (solo): This is definitely the worst storm we've had since we've been here. The worst part about it is it doesn't look to be stopping. It's dark everywhere. There's thunder, probably lightning. We're trying to stay warm in our shelter but it's leaking. Now i'm out here getting completely drenched. My nipples are hard. It's awesome.
(Debra goes outside the shelter to get beans)
Coach: Hate to tell you this, but it doesn't look like it's letting up.
Debra: It's going to be so wet in here to sleep tonight.
Coach: Please don't spill any, I'm begging you guys.
Sierra: We're not in the best circumstances right now. You just need to calm down, please.
Coach: Sierra...
Sierra: I think you're just being super-picky. We're trying. My arm doesn't extend all the way over there. We're stressed out too.
Coach: I'm not stressed out, I'm just saying I don't want to have beans in the bed.
Sierra: I'll clean the floor off.
Sierra (solo): The rain makes you want to give up. Rain will take any small little teeny thing you're holding inside against one of your tribe members and it will push it right out of you.
Coach: I haven't spilled one bean yet.
Sierra (solo): Coach had to behave the way that he did. I'm like, alright Coach, we already found the idol, I'll round everyone up and I'll vote you out. Just keep pushing my buttons. I dare ya! (laughs) I dare ya!
